frustration and God

I don't really know how much more I can say about how difficult it is to be in the same area as the church we left. It's not just being in the area, but hearing about things going on. All the while, knowing more than anyone what happened behind the scenes. This knowledge makes it hard to feel the way we do and have people wonder why we feel this way.

All I can say right now is "blah"

I just feel defeated, feel like its not fair, feel like I've been forgotten.

Are these things true, no. But it can become an easy thing to feel.

Yet, all the while, I know God is still there - still taking care of us. I know He has a plan for us, I know He is teaching me something in this. I know He has taught others lessons by watching us go through this.

(It would just be nice to not be in the middle of it)

What a pair...

Amy and Nathan on porch
Originally uploaded by lilkup.

A pic of 2 of the 3 people I look forward to seeing everyday.

God peaks around the corner...

It feels like God peaked out a little bit last week. He did not show us everything, just a little (thus the peaking). We heard back from the church in OH on Thursday. We did not hear what we wanted (ie. we did not get the position), but we did hear from God. We felt different about this opportunity - had felt it might be the one.

I was told that it came down to me and one other person. The biggest and final factor was that this other candidate was a "Timothy" from the church. And they had decided a few years ago to try to hire Timothys when they had a chance. So that does not bother me. I was told the elders tried to figure out how to hire both of us, but could not find the extra money. It was a good conversation and we know the doors are not completely closed. There is a possiblity that if something changes and they can hire another staff and we don't have another job lined up, they could contact us.

For me it was not a typical "no" conversation. And I actually felt a little encouraged afterward. Obviously, we don't know where we are going and we feel a little "lost, unsure..."

God has already showed us that we are not forgotten. Yesterday I got a call from a friend who passed on another job opening he found out about during a leadership conference this past week. God knows what is going on and He knows the big picture, and little by little He shows us a little bit more.

Thanks for the prayers.

If you know of any openings, I would welcome them. And if you happen to have any extra money to send to the church in Oh or to us, don't hesitate :)